ONE GIRL ARMY

BW - Dinner

2011-08-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

BW - Dinner by ~blackyuna on deviant ART

Ueda Tatsuya sketch

2011-07-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

Ueda Tatsuya Sketch by ~blackyuna on deviant ART

SPICE! - Kagamine Len

2011-07-27T15:08:00.002+08:00

Harvest - Kagamine Len & Rin

2011-07-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

Alice Human Sacrifice - Meiko, Kaito, Miku, Len and Rin

2011-07-25T17:04:00.001+08:00

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic

2011-07-24T11:38:00.004+08:00

yeah, I'm watching cartoons meant for 3 years old girls!!! (I know that sound sad LOL)
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wanna know what's with me and ponies? go to my LiveJournal, my blog is insanely long!!

MIP:FiM Gakupo 2 by ~blackyuna on deviant ART

here are more of my ponies!!

Perfect Crime - Len and Luka

2011-07-23T16:10:00.000+08:00

SPICE! - Kagamine Len

2011-07-22T17:32:00.001+08:00

Hatsune Miku's Head Exercises

2011-07-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

home made brush guard

2011-07-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

make-up inspired by movie Sucker Punch

2011-07-18T18:00:00.001+08:00

Paper Butterfly

2011-07-17T15:44:00.000+08:00

"Tales of" character design entry

2011-07-16T16:16:00.001+08:00

'Tales of' character design by ~blackyuna on deviant ART

contest details character profile

cherry blossom make-up

2011-07-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

by manwomanfilm

waterfall braid

2011-07-14T17:19:00.002+08:00

cutest cat video ever

2011-07-13T14:38:00.002+08:00

faceless angel

2011-07-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

faceless angel by ~blackyuna on deviant ART

Newspaper Nails

2011-01-10T16:04:00.006+08:00

You will need:

~ a small glass of rubbing alcohol or vodka
~ 10 strips of newspaper (bigger than your nails)
~ LIGHT nailpolish. white, clear, light pink, etc. anything LIGHT

K now do this:

Dip your nails in the alcohol for a while so the whole nail is wet v press a strip of the newspaper on your nail and hold firmly for 30 seconds. do NOT move the strip, keep it firm. YOU’RE DONE! Now go over with a clear coat so it’ll last.

taken from dynamite with a lazer beam

Sukiyaki Western Django

2011-01-06T16:56:00.005+08:00

I’ve only seen a few western films (spaghetti western) and pretty much the only thing I know is that involves a lot of gun shooting so I really didn’t know what else to expect in while watching this movie. And to be honest, I watched for two reasons director Miike Takashi and Oguri Shun ♥.

Sukiyaki Western Django is about a town named Yuta in Nevata. This town is said to have a hidden treasure, gold diggers started coming to their town in search for it. Two gangs took control of the town they are the reds and the whites or The Heike and The Genji.

The story is fast paced and no dull moments. The gun shooting and swordplay mixed quite well that was featured until the very end of the movie. The production design is very colorful and looked just like the other films I’ve seen. Miike Takashi’s choice to have the actors speak in English is quite refreshing. This is probably the only Japanese film I’ve seen that throughout the movie all the characters are speaking in English. The only problem with that is that sometimes I couldn’t understand a thing they were saying.

Music was fun too it really adds to the movie’s theme especially the part where Shizuka (played by Yoshino Kimura) was dancing.

Hideaki Ito who played the nameless gunman is great, I was staring at him the whole time he’s on screen, I must say he’s perfect for it. Kaori Momoi who played Ruriko probably has the most wonderful transformation in the film, from Ruriko’s youth to old age, I’m really amazed by her transformation and her character in general. I wanted to comment on Oguri Shun but he only appeared a few times in the movie which is sad, the only thing I’m gonna comment on is the I couldn’t understand some of his lines. I know he’s Japanese but there are Japanese actors and singers that have good English accent as a Japanese. And one more notable actor I,s of course, Quentin Tarantino, who played a cameo role as Ringo. His transformation at the end of the film is awesome, I was wonder who it was until I get a good look at him. I think he’s the only one throughout the movie that spoke Japanese, ironic, ne?

Overall, I like it. It’s fast paced and not boring at all.

スキヤキウェスタンジャンゴ (Sukiyaki Uesutan Jango) 2007 Japanese film directed by Miike Takashi

Dai Mahou Touge

2010-12-26T17:18:00.005+08:00

Dai Mahou Touge 大魔法峠 or Magical Witch Punie is about a princess named Punie Tanaka who came from the Magical Land. As an order from her mother she was sent to transfer in a Japanese Highschool to receive her training. Because she was next in line to the throne, Punie has a lot of enemies who wants to assassinate her. Underneath her sweet image, is a powerful princess, who not only possesses magical powers, she is also a skilled fighter.

fan-made trailer

This anime is pretty entertaining and very different to all those Mahou Shoujo anime/manga, basically this is a parody of those. The violent fight scenes become comedic because this really could pass as a shoujo anime (you probably have noticed by now that, especially if you have been watching anime for years, that the graphics and storytelling is different).

The characters are funny as well. There’s Tetsuko Koku, Punie’s friend and a train /rail fanatic. Anego (my fave) is a gang leader in their school. Payatan, a mascot that follows and helps Punie, though he still wants to kill her.

I recommend watching this anime for its laugh factor, cause seriously it’s hard not to laugh! Too bad though it only has 1 manga volume and 8 anime episodes. (for more info click here)

The Neighbor No. Thirteen

2010-12-14T14:43:00.004+08:00

OGURI SHUN ~!! ♥_♥

隣人13号 (Rinjin Jūsan-Gō) / The Neighbour No. 13 is about a peaceful, young man named Murasaki Juzo (Oguri Shun) who had been horribly bullied as a child, from eating bugs to having acid over his face and in his eye, leaving him traumatized. Now he's older and just got a new job at a construction company. Unfortunately, he finds out his boss, Toru Akai (Hirofumi Arai), is the kid who used to bully him, and what's worse is that his boss has just moved into the apartment above him. His boss doesn't remember who Juzo is, but it seems his bullying ways have not faded away. He constantly picks on Juzo at work. All the pent up anger inside of Juzo manifests itself as 13 – Juzo's other self (Nakamura Shido). It seems that Juzo has been a schizophrenic for some time, but nothing really happened until his childhood traumatizer kicked the switch. Now 13 is going around eliminating anyone and everyone around him.

The story isn’t really scary but what makes it scary that this can actually happen. Bullying can either end up in suicide or this! And though this kind of story has been done so much, the ending made a difference. Confusing but it would make sense if you think about it.

There wasn’t much music in this which makes it a little bit boring but having no music does add up to the suspense. There were also a lot of times that the characters just pose for about 5 -10 seconds and it feels like it makes the story really slow. There were weird scenes too but again, it would make sense in the end. The switch between Juzo and 13 is a bit confusing but at least you would know which personality is which.

The actors are all good nothing to comment about it. Takashii Miike, an acclaimed director, also made a cameo.

Overall, it’s all good! This story is based on the manga written by Santa Inoue, and directed by Yasuo Inoue

For Oguri Shun fans this will be such a treat! Seriously, Ogushun with no clothes?! (This makes me sound like a perv ne? =_=)

Exte

2010-05-29T12:59:00.007+08:00

Exte: Hair Extensions (エクステ, Exte) is a 2007 Japanese horror film written and directed by Sion Sono. The story revolves around Yuko Mizushima (played by Chiaki Kuriyama) is an apprentice hairdresser who wants to become a famous hairdresser. A the corpse of a young woman who appears to have become an unwilling organ donor is brought to a morgue, the examiners found the her body is stuffed with hair, Gunji Yamazaki (played by Ren Osugi)a hair fetishist stole the corpse from the morgue. The corpse kept growing hair and in order to make a profit off it Yamazaki sold the hair as extentions. Later women who wears them dies, the extension possess by the dead girl's anger kills the victims letting them see what she go through until they die.

This is definetely the weirdest movie I have ever seen. I can't explain it, I mean the story just don't make sense. I'm thinking that the dead girl is just angry that those men that killed her shaved her hair and taking on revenge on people that wear her hair thinking its unfair. But that all I can make of it, cause later hair started bleeding when cut and wounds bleed not blood but hair. Seriously weird...

The actor's were good, Kuriyama played a determined hairdresser though went through lots of roadblocks kept on going. Ren Osugi played the creepy hair fetishes who I definetely don't want to get close to (okay my hair isn't as shiny like before but still... creepy...). Miku Sato who played the abused young girl Mami Mizushima was so cute it! What I get from her is that her character is confused and still have no proper guidance and I can't help but feel sad for her.

Special effects really creeped me out, on the dark moments I don't know if something will jump out it and all I can do is brace myself for a fright.

Koyoi, Tsuki wa Miesu tomo

2010-02-24T11:22:00.006+08:00

song: Koyoi, Tsuki wa Miesu tomo
by: Porno Graffitti
ending theme song for the third Bleach movie entitled: Bleach Fade to Black

romanji:

Koyoi, tsuki wa doko o terasu no? Atsui kumo ni oowareta sora
Koyoi, kimi wa dare ni dakarete iru no ka ame ni hitori nakou ka

Subete o wakariaeru to omoi kitai nado shita jibun o hajireba
Dazai o te ni okujou ni agari kono yo nado wa to ureite miseru
Sora ni tsuba o haitara jibun ni kakatta

Tabibito kidori de itai kuse ni mayoimichi mawarimichi ga kirai de
Amekaze shinogeru yane no shita de guuguru kensaku de sekai o miru
Kimi ni todokazu ai no kotoba

Koyoi, tsuki wa doko o terasu no? Atsui kumo ni oowareta sora
Koyoi, kimi wa dare ni dakarete iru no ka ame ni hitori nakou ka

Kobiritsuita kyosei to mie to ga renaigoto ni made kao nozokase
Hanare yuku te o tsukamu koto sae hidoku muzukashii koto ni saseta
Aenaku naru to wa shitteta no ni

Koyoi, tsuki ga mienai naraba kumo no kirema ni hitasura matou
Koyoi, kimi ga miageta sora ni wa tsuki ga miete iru no darou ka

Mezasu nara kouya ga ii muku na hikari ga mitai

Iya ni mo naru sa jibun jishin sono shoutai

Kudaranai to usobuite kite nani mo kamo o shitta kao shite
Nani mo dekinai jibun kakushite hontou o nakushita
Mienai mono o miyou to sureba mabuta tojiru sore dake de ii
Kimi ga koko ni inai to shite mo koyoi, tsuki ga miezu tomo

kanji:

今宵、月はどこを照らすの?厚い雲に覆われた空
今宵、君は誰に抱かれているのか　雨に一人　泣こうか

すべてを分かりあえると思い　期待などした自分を恥じれば
太宰を手に屋上に上がり　この世などはと憂いてみせる
空にツバを吐いたら自分にかかった

旅人気取りでいたいくせに　迷い道回り道が嫌いで
雨風凌げる屋根の下で　グーグル検索で世界を見る
君に届かず　愛の言葉

今宵、月はどこをを照らすの?厚い雲に覆われた空
今宵、君は誰に抱かれているのか　雨に一人　泣こうか

こびりついた虚勢と見栄とが　恋愛事にまで顔覗かせ
離れゆく手を掴むことさえ　ひどく難しいことにさせた
会えなくなるとは知ってたのに

今宵、月がみえないならば　雲の切れ間にひたすら待とう
今宵、君が見上げた空には月が見えているのだろうか

目指すなら荒野がいい　無垢な光が見たい

いやにもなるさ　自分自身　その正体

くだらないと嘯いてきて　何もかもを知った顔して
何もできない自分隠して　本当を失した
見えないものを見ようとすれば　まぶた閉じるそれだけでいい
君がここにいないとしても　今宵、月が見えずとも

translation:

Tonight, where does the moon shine on? From the sky covered in thick clouds
Tonight, who are you embraced by? Are you going to cry alone in the rain?

If youre ashamed of yourself for thinking that you can share everything and having anticipated so
Then take your authority into your hands, get onto your rooftop, and show me that youre worried about this world
You got yourself when you spat into the sky

Even though you want to pretend to be a traveler, you hate stray paths and detours
So under the roof braving the storm, you look at the world through Google Search
Words of love dont reach you

Tonight, where does the moon shine on? From the sky covered in thick clouds
Tonight, who are you embraced by? Are you going to cry alone in the rain?

The bravado and vanity that you clung onto showed their faces even in your love affairs
And even grasping your separated hand was made into a very hard thing
Even though I knew that I cant meet you

Tonight, if you cant see the moon, then lets wait earnestly for the breaks in the clouds
Tonight, I wonder if you can see the moon in the sky that you looked up at

If I aim, Im fine with the wilderness; I want to see a flawless light

If you find yourself, your true identity disagreeable

You lied about it being insignificant, bore a face that seemed to know just about everything
Hid yourself who cant do anything, and lost the truth
If youre to see the invisible things, its okay that you have your eyelids shut
Even if youre not here, even if you cant see the moon tonight

lyrics taken from JPopAsia

Silent Hill 2

2010-02-15T15:37:00.006+08:00

Finally found a copy but I don’t think I’ll ever play Silent Hill in the dark again... except if the door is closed and no one is trying scare me! =P

Silent Hill 2 is game released in 2001 on PlayStation by Konami. The story follows James Sunderland. A man that received a letter from Mary, his wife that died of a disease three years ago, the letter says she’ll be waiting for him in their “special place” in Silent Hill. And so he went to Silent Hill knowing that his wife is long dead...

The story sounds stupid isn’t it? Well I believe that people would go through hell just to be with someone! So give James’ stupidity a chance, play the game and later torture him over and over again! =P

The Game Play:
Like in other Silent Hill games this is has battle scenes and puzzles, and modes of difficulty in which you want to play the game. As always it also features different endings depending on how you play the game. There are at least 6 endings available, alien ending is one of them of course and a weird ending called the dog ending.

There is another ending and another game to go with this series. From what I understand it is only available in the Director’s Cut. There you’ll control Maria, one of the characters in the game you’ll meet. Her role is the whole story is quite different from the rest of the characters.

The Graphics:
Silent Hill has a signature look on all its games. There isn’t much to say about it. One thing I will have to note is how slow the camera angle changes. I haven’t noticed the other games if it’s the same. This just frustrates me a bit cause I can’t see where James is shooting at, or maybe I’m not doing well with the controls, especially our Playstation controller is being rebellious lately (needs replacement I guess). The 3D animation is good nothing to complain there, it wasn’t too dark.

My Verdict:
I’m gonna sound bias so I’ll say PLAY IT!!! I’m a fan of Silent Hill games! I have to say, I have been wondering about Pyramid Head for a while. I mean every time Silent Hill comes up there’s Pyramid Head. I was wondering why he is so famous... and now that I played the game I totally understand why he so “controversial”.

So far I have played only one ending which is the In Water ending, quite unsatisfying ending I must say, reason for me to keep playing but this time with a walkthrough in hand, so I can get whatever ending I want.

Game stats: (remembering from memory)
Playtime: 9hs+
Saves: 30+
Ending: in Water
Battle mode: Easy (I’m a wimp... -_-;)
Puzzle mode: Normal (I’ll play hard mode next time!)

Yeah, that’s all I remember from a whole screen of my game status... off to finish the rest!

Here's the In Water ending, of course you can choose not to watch it... cause it is a spoiler, a really stupid spoiler!!

Lipstick shape personality

2010-02-01T13:37:00.008+08:00

What does you lipstick shape say about you?

Slant close to original shape

Abides by the rules
Great follower
Doesn’t like too much attention
A little self-conscious, reserved
Schedule driven
May occasionally want to attract
Attention: dye hair, new outfits.

Sharp angles both sides

Spiritual
Curious
Seeks attention
Mysterious
Loves life
Big ego

Sharp angled box curved tip

Creative
Enthusiastic, energetic
Talkative
Loves attention
Falls in love easily
Helpful

Sharp angle tip

Opinionated
High-spirited
Dislikes schedules
Selective of friends
Outgoing likes attention
Argumentive

Rounded tip to a point

Loveable
Family oriented, domestic
A “doer”
Stubborn over little things
Exaggerates
Needs people around

Rounded smooth tip

Easy-going
Peacemaker
Even tempered
Steady
Likeable
Generous

Flat top concave

A great detective
Make friends easily
Inquisitive
Adventurous
Complex
Exciting

Flat top

To the point
High morals
Very dependable
Quick minded
Loves challenges
Careful about appearances

heavily taken from http://www.martinarmand.com/Lipstick_Shapes.html

Cutie Honey

2010-01-28T17:26:00.004+08:00

I'm not a fan of Majou Shoujo but when I saw this I just watched it cause I don't know what else to watch at the moment.

Cutie Honey is based on the anime of the same title created by Go Nasai (who had a cameo in the movie). The movie loosely tells the story of cutie Honey who battle to defend humanity and to avenge her father. Her powers came from the Imaginary Induction System or I system ("I" written as Ai japanese for the word love).

I really never heard of Cutie Honey before I watched this so I really don't know if this movie resembles the original story. The story was pretty simple, her uncle got kidnapped by the secret organization Panther Claw and she must save him. When she did, she met Natsuki Aki police officer in charge of the related cases to Panther Claw. She also met a mysterious reporter named Seiji Hayami who claims he's on Honey's side and gives her some leads.

The effects on the movie is a like too unpolised which makes it look too animated, which works of course since this movie is based on an anime.

In a review of this on TV I heard that this movie is created by the fans of the original anime. Everything on this movie is made by the fans, to costume design, to the actors who's going to play and the effects created. In short this movie is created by the fans for the fans and the others who might take interest in watching the movie.

Eriko Sato played the lead star, some fans are saying she doesn't resemble the character because of some physical features. Erika played her part well, one thing I noticed is the when Honey's personality changes her voice changes as well, when Honey is fighting her voice is almost deep and serious and then when Honey is acting her usual genki self, her voice is almost pitchy. Mikako Ichikawa played Natsuki Aki, she looks like the character and looks quite bossy. Can you believe she's 32 years old? As for her performance, she's really good, she made me like Natsuki a lot.

The costume and make-up of the Panther Claw group is really good. The details is quite fasinating!

A little warning though the movie has lots of half naked scenes. I think this targets children because of Honey's bubbly and innocent personality and the villians whose almost like those villians in Power Rangers. But because of the costumes and those half naked scenes, I don't know if this should be recommended by children... Oh well with proper guidance I think this is suitable for all ages!

Noriko's Dinner Table

2010-01-14T13:59:00.006+08:00

"Are you connected to yourself?" A question left me asking myself what it meant. It was a question repeatedly asked throughout the first movie. I didn't know what it meant nor how to answer it until I watched this movie...

Nokiro's Dinner Table, a prequel to the movie Suicide Club, tells the story of Nokiro a highschool student living with her parents and younger sister Yuka in Toyokawa. She always felt she's bounded and wanted to run away. She met a mysterious girl online named Ueno Station 54 and decided to meet her when Nokiro finally decided to run away from home.

The story revolved around what triggered the mass suicuide featured in the first movie, who and what made those girls commit suicide. It is set before, during and after the first movie. It does explains things and events that was a bit confusing in the first movie but there are still some things that would make you think, like who started the family circle, it can't be just Kumiko, and how about those kids in the first movie are they part of the family circle as well?

Though this movie isn't as bloody and disturbing as the first movie, it does have a message to say... like alienation and who internet plays a role, generation gap and miscommunication.

The Truth about Pacman

2010-01-08T10:23:00.006+08:00

In 1976, Cosmonaut Nikolai Peckmann was sent alone to an orbiting space station for what would be called Mission Six- to study the radiation levels and strange circumstances that killed all four crewmen of the last research mission.

By the third day, Peckmann's broken transmissions were coming back to ground control filled with increasing paranoia and delusion. He claimed that the spirits of the dead cosmonauts were coming to claim him, and that he had to keep moving to evade them. He shouted that if he could capture consume these spirits himself while he still had strength, he could move to the next level of consciousness...Truly the rantings of an insane man.

Indeed, video recovered later would show Peckmann running around the confined but maze-like station, downing emergency sedatives like a madman....pausing in a corner momentarily, only to throw back vitamin pills and give chase to his invisible demons.

He had exhausted the entire cargo of vitamins, pills, and fresh fruit well ahead of schedule. There was no way another crew could be assembled to rescue him before he starved. After one rather violently garbled transmission, the static cleared and the last live image on record is that of Peckmann's empty, wilted spacesuit on the cabin floor.

It was determined that another mission to recover any remains or gather any more research would be a waste of the people's money, and the station was allowed to drift out of orbit and into space- a failure never to be mentioned again. It was ordered and assumed that all video and paper evidence had been destroyed.

..then, at the dawn of the eighties, a fledgling arcade game company called NAMCO would stumble across the transcripts of these events, and the rest -as they say- is history.

me: "nice story!^_^"

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Here's more stories from Creepy Tales from the land of /b/

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The Operation

On the farthest point of Long Island, the last scrap of land that still counts as New York, there sits a tremendous, abandoned building. Protected by its own isolated location, there is also at any given time two to three Security Guards there. However, if one approaches the cast iron gates on the night of December 4th, even those few security guards refuse to work. The gates are left unlocked, and the wind will be utterly still, a nearly opaque fog filling the peninsula. Go directly to the main doors and step within, there will be a single long hallway , the end occluded by that fog. If you look to either side upon entering, you will see a modern operating room through a glass door. The farther you walk, the older the equipment will get, the more old fashioned the doctors will be dressed. As you can finally see the end of the hallway, the screams of the patients will be nearly deafening. Tthe hall will terminate in an open door leading to a single wooden table, a man in woolen medical clothing, stained brown from blood, will be bent over a corpse. The body's face will be covered, and the man will turn silently, screwing the top onto a cloudy jar of liquid, filled to the brim. He will hand this abnormally heavy object to you, before turning back to his work. Instantly, you will be outside of those cast iron gates. From that point on, disease and injury will never affect you, but if you ever open that cloudy jar and pull out the contents... you will find a heart, pulsing and beating loudly in your palm. A sudden feeling of horror and revulsion will pass through you as realization strikes, that you have just pulled your own living heart from your chest.

me: "wow... as long as I keep the jar safe I'll be okay? hmmm... sounds like pirates of the carribean to me."

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Highschool Friends

Yesterday, a friend of mine called me. It was a John, an old buddy from high school. I hadn't spoken with him for years, and we started to reminisce about all the crap we pulled in high school. A few days later I decided to call him back, and see if we could get together, maybe go fishing or something.

We talked on the phone for a while, and I said to him "Hey, maybe we should get together sometime." He first said that that was a bad idea, but then he agreed. I asked him for address, copied it down, and told him I'd see him in the morning.

The next morning I arrived at the place he said he lived at. There was nothing but rubble there. It looked like there had been a fire there years ago, but nothing got cleaned up, and the plants never regrew. In the middle of the rubble, I found a old rotary style telephone on the floor, not connected to anything. Hurridly, I pulled out my cellphone and called his number.

The telephone on the floor rang.

Once.

Twice.

A third time.

I dropped my cellphone in shock, and knelt to grab the rotary telephone. A voice, drenched in distortion and hiss, said:

"I told you this was a bad idea."

me: "well this is sad..."

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The Messenger

In Berlin, after World War II, money was short, supplies were tight, and it seemed like everyone was hungry. At that time, people were telling the tale of a young woman who saw a blind man picking his way through a crowd. The two started to talk. The man asked her for a favor: could she deliver the letter to the address on the envelope? Well, it was on her way home, so she agreed.

She started out to deliver the message, when she turned around to see if there was anything else the blind man needed. But she spotted him hurrying through the crowd without his smoked glasses or white cane. She went to the police, who raided the address on the envelope, where they found heaps of human flesh for sale.

And what was in the envelope? "This is the last one I am sending you today."

me: "this sent chills up my spine immediately after I read that last line..."

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repost from Creepy Tales from the land of /b/

Kudo Shinichi Returns!

2010-01-07T09:53:00.007+08:00

I have been wanting to watch this movie when I first heard of it. Of course I just saw the first Detective Conan at that moment.

The story is set during the time where Conan met and saved Sherry, the woman responsible for making the drug that made Shinichi into a 10 year old boy. A little rewind here, Sherry drank that the same drug after discovering that the drug she made doesn't kill it will only turn her into a 10 year old child. She can so escape the black organization. And since then she's been with Conan as Ai Haibara.

Title: 工藤新一の復活！～黒の組織との対決
Title (romaji): Kudo Shinichi no Fukkatsu! Kuro no Soshiki to no Taiketsu
Title (English): Kudo Shinichi Returns! Showdown with the Black Organization
Broadcast date: 2007-Dec-17

In this story, Conan, Haibara, Doctor Agasa and Ran were invited to a hotel that Honoko's family owned. A party is to be held there in to honor Miss Japanesque, Kotobuki Karen (Natsuki). Just when they arrived in the hotel Honoko is informed by Mimi Kotobuki (Nishio Mari), Karen's older sister and manager, that karen is being blackmailed. But Karen is confident that she can fend herself from her blackmailer with a knife concealed underneath her dress. So the group went to the ball to witness the event. They were served with food and drinks. Ran thought of informing Shinichi about the blackmail and so Conan seeing that run off to the outside to make a call to Ran as Shinichi. But before he could do that Conan started feeling that he's starting to change also at the same time Haibara was feeling the same thing. When they transformed Shinichi immediately thought of Sherry safety against the Black Organization and called Dr. Agasa to help her out so he can stay to ensure that nothing happens in the event. But the crime was committed and caused panic inside the hotel. The broadcast is shown live and accidentally Sherry's image was shown on TV. Gin of the Black Organization spotted Sherry and immediately went to the hotel in attempt to kill Sherry. Shinichi only have a few hours in order to solve the case, at the same time protect Sherry from the Black Organization and preventing Ran to see him transform as Conan.

The story is as always awesome since this is Detective Conan! But unlike the first movie this story kept me guessing who the culprit is until it is revealed. It's a shame that there's only a few appearance of the Black Organization cause Gin is smart! His deductive skills is the same as Shinichi/Conan, his sharp and observant a total opposite of Vodka, his partner.

The actors is great as well. Oguri Shun reprised his role as Shinichi Kudo and he looked damned cute at it! There are parts though that made me think that this would be better as an anime cause his facial expression is shown as much because of the effects they use when he is in pain. Ran played by Kurokawa Tomoka did a great job as well, she acted as Ran pretty well, when I watch her she acts as if she's Ran and she looked the part too! Kashii Yu played Miyano Shiho/Sherry, she looked so pretty as Sherry but sometimes I think her hair is a wig but it looks good though. Iwasa Mayuko played Suzuki Sonoko, enjoyed watching her she played Sonoko so well and look so much like the anime character. Gin of the Black Organization is played by Sasaki Kuranosuke, I'm starting to become a fan of this guy. He plays his parts so well and I love hating his characters in any stories I have seen. I immediately remembered watching him in Orthos no Inu and 20th Century Boys, he's so cool. As for how he looked, I have to be honest, he looked old for the character and his hair is an obvious wig and why is it white than brown? I think it would look so much better if his hair was light brown or dirty blond. Inspector Megure is played by Ibu Masato, his body suit is really distracting it's obvious that it's not his body. Jinnai Takanori played Kogoro Mori he really didn't have many parts in this story but this time his acting was so much like Kogoro, the shouting when he gets exited... awesome, but still no drunken scene. =P The kids playing Haibara (Shibata Kyoka) and Conan (Fujisaki Nao) was cute I was just wondering why they were dubbed, maybe thier voices is too high? I don't know it's a bit distracting...

There is one thing I noticed and I think it was cute. If you actually watch Detective Conan the anime you would notice that there are names of items in the story that were changed like Leica is changed to Laica, stuff like that. Well in this movie you'd notice that too and it look so realistic! Look out for the brand name of the alcohol in the kitchen scene! =P

In case you're wondering why I remember Leica of all things, for some people they already know it's my real name and if you don't know what a Leica is, it's a brand of camera, which I wish I have...

Oh! By the way, this isn't really a movie, it's a drama special, it's just easier to say movie... ^_^

Shizuka na koi no monogatari by Aqua Timez

2010-01-05T12:00:00.007+08:00

(video: song 1 words of silence, song 2 shizuka na koi no monogatari)

by Aqua Timez
album 七色の落書き (Nana Iro no Raku Gaki)

romanji:

Kokoro no suimen ni kotoba wo ukabete nagameru
Te ni te wo kasaneta mama
Chinmoku de katari au futari no kuukan
Shizen to hoho wo tsutau setsunasa no hontou
Namida wa hikari wo oikakeru oto
Sonzai wa tsumugi ai
Tateito to yokoito no monogatari

Taisetsu na hito wo taisetsu ni suru toiu koto
Sono hito no sora wo aoku shitai to omou koto
Jibun no kimochi wo KAMUFURAAJU shi nagara
Hanarebanare no goro ni okutta tegami

“Unmei no koi wa futteki mashita ka?
Mada ame ni nurete imasu ka?
Tada ame ni nurete itai dake nan desu ka?”
Kotoba de kakusu hodo koe wa hadaka ni naru
Anata wa sabishiku nanka nai to itta ne

Yuuyake no ORENJI ga
Boku no heya no KAATEN ni shimikomu
Nigirikaeshite kureru te wa
Tooi machi no sora no shita ni aru
Sabishi sa wa kono mune no naka ni atte
Setsunai ni sankatan so wo tsukuru
Tameiki toiu mei de chuu wo mai
Toki no nagare no naka de toketeku

Shiawase na kuusou wo daita mama nemuru yoru
Anata wa dare wo omoi dare no yume wo miru no?
Ae nai jikan wa bokura wo
Doko ni tsurete yukun darou
Kawara nai mono ga nai
Kono sekai de

Kyou no “zettai” ga asu no nani ni naru
Hashiri satteku hikari wo mitodokeru no wa
Boku no hou nan daro una
Sore demo ii to omotte suki ni natta kara
Anata wa chigau dareka no mune ni nemutte mo ii yo

Tsukiru koto naku afureru omoi ni mo
Itsuka owari ga kurun darou
Sore naraba kono isshun wo eien to yobou
Kono toki wo takusan no kioku de kazarou
Taezu nagareteku shinjitsu no naka de
Kokoro no soko ni made mogutte kite kureru koe ga aru
Sore wa yukkuri chikaduite
Boku no kodoku wo dakishimeru
Anata ga soba ni ite kuretara tte
Soba ni ite waratte kuretara tte...

kanji:

心の水面に言葉を浮かべて眺める
手に手を重ねたまま　
沈黙で語り合う二人の空間
自然と頬を伝う切なさの真実　
涙は光を追いかける音
存在は紡ぎあい　
縦糸と横糸の物語

大切な人を大切にするということ
その人の空を青くしたいと思うこと
自分の気持ちをカムフラージュしながら
離れ離れの頃に送った手紙

「運命の恋は降ってきましたか?
まだ雨に濡れていますか?
ただ雨に濡れていたいだけなんですか?」
言葉で隠すほど声は裸になる
あなたは　淋しくなんかないと言ったね

夕焼けのオレンジが
僕の部屋のカーテンに染み込む
握り返してくれる手は
遠い街の空の下にある
淋しさはこの胸の中にあって　
切ない二酸化炭素をつくる
ため息という名で宙を舞い　
時の流れの中で溶けてく

幸せな空想を抱いたまま眠る夜
あなたは誰を想い誰の夢を見るの?
会えない時間は僕らを
何処に連れて行くんだろう
変わらないものがない　
この世界で

今日の「絶対」が明日の何になる
走り去ってく光を見届けるのは
僕の方なんだろうな
それでもいいと思って好きになったから
あなたは　違う誰かの胸に眠ってもいいよ

尽きる事なく溢れる想いにも　
いつか終わりが来るんだろう
それならば　この一瞬を永遠と呼ぼう
この時をたくさんの記憶で飾ろう　
絶えず流れてく真実の中で
心の底にまで潜って来てくれる声がある
それはゆっくり近づいて
僕の孤独を抱きしめる
あなたがそばにいてくれたらって
そばにいて　わらってくれたらって…

translation:

Gaze at words floating in heart’s surface
put hand on another as in silence
Talking matches the space between the couple
The tears of painful reality that naturally run along the cheek
Chase the light
The existance of spinning love’s sound
spinned and weaved story

The meaning of treating important people importantly
I want to make this person’s sky become blue, and to think that
though my own feeling was camouflaged
in scattered time I sent off a letter

“Has fated love fallen already?
Yet, is it there, getting wet in the rain?
Is it only the remains that getting wet in the rain?”
You who, with words, conceal the limited voice in bareness
It wasn’t a thing called loneliness, right?

The orange sunset
soaks through the curtain of my room
The hand that grasped mine in return
was under the sky of far away street
The loneliness is inside this chest
I breathe a painful breath
A great sigh dances in the air
fusing inside the flowing time

Night where we embraced a happy fantasy when sleep
Whom person do you think of, whose dream do you see?
I wonder what place the separated time continues leading us to
in this world it isn’t an unchangeable thing

This day’s “absoluteness” will surpass any tomorrow
Running away to see the light with my own eyes
I wonder if that’s my way
Even so it’s fine, and thinking in fondness from that moment
You who sleeping in somebody’s chest is now a different person

Overflowed by emotion that wouldn’t end
I wonder if one day it would be over
in that case, this moment let’s call the eternity
Let’s decorate this time with many memories
Constantly flowing inside the reality
Diving into the bottom of heart, it was the voice
slowly getting near, embrace my solitude
You’re beside me
laughing beside me…

lyrics taken from JPopAsia

Brooklyn Rage

2010-01-02T11:43:00.004+08:00

this is one of the videos of CardGamesFTW, Mashable winner for Funniest YouTube Channel of 2009.

I just love this one so funny, check out the rest!

Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeeehhh
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeeehhh
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeeehhh
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeeehhh
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeeehhh

I wanna duel 'em like they do in Yu-Gi-Oh
Face down face up trap cards spell cards then time roulette go (I love it!)
All I do is just believe in the heart of the cards
And then I kick some butt when I use Swordsman of Landstar

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-ohh-oh-oh
Ain't no surprise, check out my Red Eyes
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-ohh-oh-oh
Ain't no surprise, check out my Red Eyes

Can't beat my
Can't beat my
No they can't beat my Brooklyn Rage
(I don't wanna be a furry)
Can't beat my
Can't beat my
No they can't beat my Brooklyn Rage
(I don't wanna be a furry)

Bruh-bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage, bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh
Bruh-bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage, bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh

My sister's sight is on the line I gotta win
They'll learn to run soon as they see my creepy chin (I'm scary!)
Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
But since we're dubbed by 4Kids we must make do without one
Sucks!

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-ohh-oh-oh
Ain't no surprise, check out my Red Eyes
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-ohh-oh-oh
Ain't no surprise, check out my Red Eyes

Can't beat my
Can't beat my
No they can't beat my Brooklyn Rage
(I don't wanna be a furry)
Can't beat my
Can't beat my
No they can't beat my Brooklyn Rage
(I don't wanna be a furry)

Bruh-bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage, bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh
Bruh-bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage, bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh

I won't lose to Rex and Weevil
Cause they're evil
And I'm groovy with my Yugi
I'm not baggin' I'm just hangin' with my Baby Dragon
Met this chick with giant boobies
Treated us like we were noobies and
She's such an ass, such an ass
Check this deck, I ain't second class!

Can't beat my
Can't beat my
No they can't beat my Brooklyn Rage
(I don't wanna be a furry)
Can't beat my
Can't beat my
No they can't beat my Brooklyn Rage
(I don't wanna be a furry)

Bruh-bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage, bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh
Bruh-bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage, bruh-bruh-Brooklyn Rage
Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh

Promise

2010-01-01T11:50:00.005+08:00

this is the song popularly used in the Geddan videos, it's called Promise by Kohmi Hirose.

romanji:

Koi no hajimari mo yume no tsuzuki mo
Kitto anata to…

Tsumetai kitakaze futari wo chikazukeru kisetsu
Tsunaida yubi kara koboredasu “suki” no kimochi
Koohii no jihanki no “attakai” osu tabi
Kokoro ni hi ga tomoru

Get down
Yureru mawaru fureru setsunai kimochi
Futari de issho ni nemuru winter land
Anata dake mitsumete watashi dake mitsumete
Asu wo chikau

Gyutto dakare moeru koigokoro
Hageshiku maichiru yuki ni tsutsumarete
Eien ni ai shiteru kyou yori ai shiteru
Zutto eternal love

Taisetsu ni suru wa mirai tsunagu shirubaa ringu
Itsudemo mamotte kurete iru ai no akashi
Yasashii egao wa “attakai” moufu mitai ni
Kanashimi mo nemurasu

Get down
Uso mo yume mo ima mo dou demo ii
Futari de issho ni sugosu winter night
Yasashii kisu wo shite hoshi ni negai komete
Kako wo wasure

Sotto kami wo nadete koibito yo
Sasayaku kotoba ga mune ni komiageru
Eien ni ai shiteru kyou yori ai shiteru
Zutto eternal love

Get down
Yureru mawaru fureru setsunai kimochi
Futari de issho ni nemuru winter land
Anata dake mitsumete watashi dake mitsumete
Asu wo chikau

Gyutto dakare moeru koigokoro
Hageshiku maichiru yuki ni tsutsumarete
Eien ni ai shiteru kyou yori ai shiteru
Zutto eternal love

Sotto kami wo nadete koibito yo
Sasayaku kotoba ga mune ni komiageru
Eien ni ai shiteru kyou yori ai shiteru
Zutto eternal love

kanji:

恋の始まりも夢の続きも
きっとあなたと

冷たい北風二人を近づける季節
つないだ指からこぼれだす好きの気持ち
コーヒーの自販機の暖かい押す度
心に灯がともる

Get down
揺れる回る振れる切ない気持ち
二人で一緒に眠るWinter Land
あなただけ見つめて私だけ見つめて
明日を誓う

ぎゅっと抱かれ燃える恋心
激しく舞い散る雪に包まれて
永遠に愛してる今日より合いしてる
ずっとEternal Love

大切にするは未来つなぐシルバーリング
いつでも守ってくれている愛の証
優しい笑顔は暖かい毛布みたいに
悲しみも眠らす

Get down
うそも夢も今もどうでもいい
二人で一緒にすごすWinter Night
優しいキスをして星に願いこめて
過去を忘れ

そっと髪をなでて恋人よ
ささやく言葉が胸に込み上げる
永遠に愛して今日より愛してる
ずっとEternal Love

Get Down
揺れる回る振れる切ない気持ち
二人で一緒に眠るWinter Lanｄ
あなただけ見つめて私だけみつめて
明日を誓う

ぎゅっと抱かれ燃える恋心
激しく舞い散る雪に包まれて
永遠に愛してる今日より合いしてる
ずっとEternal Love

そっと髪をなでて恋人よ
ささやく言葉が胸に込み上げる
永遠に愛して今日より愛してる
ずっとEternal Love

translation:

The beginning of our love, this continuing dream
I’ll surely spend it with you…

The cold wind, the season that brings us closer
As we entwine fingers, my feelings of love overflow
Every time I push the “warm” button on the coffee vending machine
A light goes on in my heart

Get down
A shaking, spinning, touching, painful feeling
Sleeping together in a winter land
You looking only at me, me looking only at you
We make a promise for tomorrow

You hold me tight and I feel a burning love
Wrapped in the heavily falling snow
I’ll love you forever, I’ll love you even more than today
Forever, eternal love

I’ll treasure this silver ring, it joins our futures
A proof of our love that’ll always protect me
Your gentle smile lulls even my sadness to sleep
Like a warm blanket

Get down
I don’t care about lies or promises or the oresent
Spending the winter nights together
We share tender kisses and wish on a star
And forget the past

Stroke my hair softly, my love
Your whispered words overflow in my heart
I’ll love you forever, I’ll love you even more than today
Forever, eternal love

Get down
A shaking, spinning, touching, painful feeling
Sleeping together in a winter land
You looking only at me, me looking only at you
We make a promise for tomorrow

You hold me tight and I feel a burning love
Wrapped in the heavily falling snow
I’ll love you forever, I’ll love you even more than today
Forever, eternal love

Stroke my hair softly, my love
Your whispered words overflow in my heart
I’ll love you forever, I’ll love you even more than today
Forever, eternal love

lyrics taken from JPopAsia

Geddan (Get Down)

2009-12-29T15:14:00.006+08:00

My brother showed me this Youtube video and totally feel in love with the idea! I'll probably do this someday... when I feel like it or maybe find a person who's wacky enough to make me do this together! ^_^

wedding of a man and a videogame character

2009-12-21T11:57:00.005+08:00

WTH!!! O_o OMG! It's the end of Japan!!! NO~~!

Parasite Eve the movie

2009-12-19T18:57:00.006+08:00

Toshiaki Nagashima is a biologist who is doing major research on mitochondria. When his beautiful young wife is left brain-dead following a car accident, he secretly extracts mitochondria from her liver cells and begins tampering with them in a desperate attempt to revive her. The mitochondria take on a life of their own and begin seizing control of the laboratory attendants, spawning a terrifying new species that eventually threatens to take over the world.

I only played Parasite Eve 2 cause like always I couldn't get a copy of it also my brother plays PS so much that I couldn't get any turn on it. Enough about that...

PLaying the game I expected this movie to be of the horror genre but it more of a love story than horror. There are creppy moments but not really horror. There wasn't any gun shooting either because it doesn't suit the story yet. You can say that this movie is the history of the game? I don't know I haven't played every game yet. And honestly this is making me want to play the game even more (like the previous videogame inspired movies that I recently reviewed).

The story was alright it was a bit slow for me maybe cause I was expecting horror and action and gun fighting. The movie didn't made me wonder that much unlike most Japanese movies I've seen. There wasn't any unleft question or something like that but I'm not saying it was boring either. There were some pointless moments but it could be forgiven. What stuck me most was the ending credits I like that whole flashback thing.

The actors I would say is entertaining to watch. I have no idea why but Japanese women even in that classic style is so beautiful. The acting wasn't bad at all but one thing I noticed is how respectful the dialogues are unlike the movies I've seen recently. It's quite refreshing to watch. I also have to note what I have noticed... was nurse uniform really like that 10 years ago? Cause they look hot in it, I don't mean sexy hot but hot like you'd sweat wearing that. It was long sleeves and a bit baggy. This is making me hate the uniforms I see today. Cause nurses uniform now looked like it was sexed up... but I'm not refering to all nurses uniform of course.

The movie also have some computer graphic effects. I really don't know what CG looks like in 1996 but compared to what it is now I would say it pretty good, simple, clean and good.

The movie was created based of a novel. The novel is described as somber and creppy. This movie goes for more somber than creppy and the game went all out horror than somber. It is said that this movie wasn't that popular when it was released but obviously the game made a much more impact than the movie. I guess someone (Japan or US) should make a remake of this or something.

I have learned that if your married to a scientist you shouldn't get seriously sick or never die or else the would turn them mad!

Onnechanbara the movie

2009-12-17T10:35:00.005+08:00

Another game turned into videogame. Well this one isn't that bad since Onechanbara (the game)'s gameplay is all fights. I have already written a review on that game (but it's the 2nd game) read it if you like... [Onnechanbara 2 review and some walkthrough]

The story is Aya looking for her sister Saki who she saw kill their own father. She travels with Katsuji a man looking for her sister Asami. As they were looking for Saki they met the leather clad Reiko whose seeking revenge for Dr. Sugita. Aya and Reiko had a little fight but they were by Katsugi. Reiko said that Saki is with Dr. Sugita though Aya never said a word Katsuji explained that Reiko can join them.

Well this obviously didn't follow the story of the game but the video effects reminds me of the game so much. I was waiting patiently for her blood lust move and it was awesome they made it look so dramatic with the special effects added. The girl playing Aya looks great in that costume. Reiko looks the part too except that the gun she's using is a smaller than what Reiko uses in the game. Saki looks perfect, her costume is changed a little though. But I'm thinking maybe thier costumes were based on the first game cause I only get to play the second so I really don't know...

I'm not gonna hate on this movie since the fight scenes were awesome. I just hate the fact that Saki is a villian here. I also would like to point out that though they weren't smiling as much they do smile just a little bit that you won't recognize it but it's there. While we're on the topic of smiling, I wish Aya smiled more at the ending... Oh if you're wondering why Aya have two swords, well just watch the movie that made me wonder as well while I first saw the trailer...

Forbidden Siren

2009-12-15T12:13:00.004+08:00

When I saw this movie on Youtube I just wanted to see it. I know it's from a game and my brother said that if it's based on a game it basically would suck but I would always ignore him and just watch it whether I'll like it or not.

The movie is about a girl named Yuki that moved to Yami Island with her father and sick brother. The people of the island seemed untrustworthy. She met one of her neighboor and she was told not to go outside when the siren is sounding. Strange things started to happen, Yuki then discovered a legend that if a mermaid's is eaten they will become immortal. There was a report that a mermaid was caught and was eaten and before the mermaid died it let out a terrible scream cursing the island in the process.

I have never played the game though I've tired to look or a descent copy and I have never been successful on that. I couldn't say that it's good or not but I honestly like the story and it made me scream twice, something that that has never happened in a while. But according to some reviews there are some scenes on the movie that is based on the game (which I don't know of course...).

There are some confusing parts in the movie especially the ending. Is Yuki seeing things or is she being controlled by the vengeful mermaid? Some reviews said that the second game is loosely based on this movie... I guess I'll find out if I play those games. But I do have my own opinion in the story of the game. I just don't want to write it cause of possible spoilers...

But without comparing it to the game I would say it's a good movie. I don't know if it's the video but there are a lot of dark moments that you just can't see that much.

Maritess and the Superfriends

2009-12-14T11:03:00.005+08:00

The first time I saw this it made me laugh and until now it's still making me laugh! Go watch enjoy ^_^
animation by Dion Ignacio and story by Rex Naverette
yeah! Pinoys Rock!!!

Three... Extreme

2009-12-13T09:48:00.008+08:00

"Three... Extremes" is a collection of three stories from three different countries, it is like Shake, Rattle and Roll movies here in the Philippines.

The first story came from Hong Kong, it is called Dumplings directed by Fruit Chan. It is about a dumpling maker named Aunt Mei and a former actress named Mrs. Li. Aunt Mei is known to make dumplings that would make you look younger. But what makes her dumplings expensive is the ingredient that is her best kept secret.
From the moment the movie started I already have a guess what the story would be like, I guess it was a little too common for me. There wasn't a lot of gore in it but I guess what makes the story extreme is the story. Though it is a story that has been told in other ways it is still gruesome. But I guess I wasn't the only one that thinks the story shouldn't have ended there cause later after this movie is release director Fruit Chan release Dumplings an expanded version of this story.
The story is pretty much the same but with a few differences...

The second story came from South Korea, it is called Cut directed by Park Chanwook. It is about a director and his wife who got kidnapped by one of his extra. The extra demands the director to kill a little girl and if he won't do it his wife's fingers will be cut off one by one every minutes.
Korean make the best story, out of the three this is my favorite. The ending of this story is really good!

The last story came from Japan, it is called Box directed by Miike Takashi. Kyoko a writer has been having dreams about being buried in a small box. She is searching for her long lost sister, she realizes her dreams and her reality may be connected.
The thing I like in Japanese horror is that there is always a good twist in the end but before you get there you'll get confused in the story. You'll only understand the story after you watch the whole thing and maybe watch it the second time.

The thing I like about the whole movie is that you can see each country's style of filming. I have noticed it before and this movie just showed it more. Also you'll see some of the culture and beliefs in each story.

Alien Crazy

2009-12-12T16:32:00.002+08:00

When I first heard of Silent Hill they said it was scary and hard to play. But I played it anyway it was good. I loved the story, the puzzles, the gameplay and the different endings. One of the endings of the story is an alien ending. And here they are enjoy! ^_^

From Silent Hill

From Silent Hill 2

From Silent Hill 3

From Silent Hill 5

Sorry no Silent Hill 4... apparently they never made one... I haven't played 4 and 5 so I don't really know... So far my favorite alien ending would be from Silent Hill 3, the song is a bit addictive.

Nightmare Detective

2009-12-10T09:38:00.005+08:00

A young woman found a man online and they decided to commit suicide together. Calling on the phone they planned to kill themselves at the same time. But something strange happened, when the girl was about to kill herself something unseen is trying to kill her. Though she has escaped and gotten safely inside the house she was still attacked. Keiko Kirishima (played by hitomi), a brilliant but seemlingly emotionless police detective handled the case. It was her first time on a crime scene and couldn't handle it at first. Though her collegues thinks its a suicide she is not sure. They asked for the assistance of a nightmare detective named Kagenuma (played by Ryuhei Matsuda), a young suicidal man who has the ability to enter other people's dream.

The story is kind of like Nightmare on Elm Street and Suicide Circle combined. The story about dreams are always confusing you don't know where it starts when shown in the story, which confused me a little bit.

Nightmare Detective (悪夢探偵, Akumu Tantei) is a 2007 Japanese horror film directed by Shinya Tsukamoto and released by Movie-Eye Entertainment Inc.

Street Fighter: Later Years

2009-12-09T14:24:00.006+08:00

Ever wondered what happened to them after the tournaments were over and they were older? I actually never did but I came across these series that made me laugh. The 9 part series is created by CollegeHumor.com

Actors were funny and played the parts well. One thing I have to point out is why Chun-li played by an obviously not Chinese girl but with her make-up you could be fooled... just a little bit. But there are some that would make you question why were they dressed like that especially Ken (dude what's with the bandana?).

The story is alright, there were so many twists that would make you wonder if the ending will be satisfying. There weren't so many fight scenes though, expecting that this series is based on a fighting game. I also liked the extras they placed on the series like the one of the scenes on the final episode were they imitated the intro of the game.

Video links from YouTube

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Ichi the Killer

2009-12-03T14:08:00.006+08:00

Kakihara (Tadanobu Asano) is a sadomasochist yakuza, when his boss, Anjo, disappeared he believes that he is kidnapped and not dead. His investigation turns violent as he torture his suspects. He then learned of the killer, Ichi (Nao Omori), beliving that he is a totally sadist. But Ichi is not, normally he is cowardly. Ichi is hypnotized after he killed his own parents. He then turned violent everytime he is reminded of a false memory.

Ichi the Killer (殺し屋１, Koroshiya Ichi) is a 2001 Japanese film directed by Takashi Miike, based on Hideo Yamamoto's manga series of the same name.

The movie is filled of gore and violence. The story is alright I really thought the movie is about the "Ichi" the killer but it was actually about Kakihara and his sadistic ways. The actors were good, I really wouldn't see Ichi as a killer especially when he cries. Thier boss made me laugh as few times cause of the way he walks and move.

This is probably the most disturbing movie I've seen in my opinion because of the torture scenes. Seeing gore movies all the time doesn't disgust me as much anymore but in this movie I can't believe rape is isn't enough. There was this scene with the prostitute that they raped and tortured. The way they tortured her was just too much! Seriously...

But since this movie mostly revolves around Kakihara's quest to find Ichi, it made me a curious about Ichi. In the movie it is said that he killed his parents. I'm wondering if it's accidental or accidental. And how did he become that strong? I have more question about Ichi's past... Thank goodness there's a prequel! I'll go watch it as soon as I find an online streaming... ^_^

words of silence

2009-10-17T17:00:00.008+08:00

(video: song 1 words of silence, song 2 shizuka na koi no monogatari)

by Aqua Timez
album 七色の落書き (Nana Iro no Raku Gaki)

romanji:
Usureru koto wa atte mo
Kieru koto wa nai
Hitori no hito wo aishita kioku
Ano goro itsumo itsu no hi mo
Manazashi no saki ni atta
Mirai wa hitotsu eien no kizuna
Kaze ni yureru momiji no
Ano chiisa na ki no shita de yuuki wo
Furi shibotte tsutaeta hitotsu no kokuhaku
Migite no kusuriyubi ni hametao
Soroi no kokochi yoi sokubaku
Haru no atatakai hidamari no
Naka de jare ai nagara
Kono mama toki ga toki ga tomatte shimaeba
Ii no ni honki de sou omotta
“Ohayou” “Oyasumi”
“Te wo tsunagou” “Zutto issho ni iyou”
“Arigatou” “Gomen ne”
“Mata ashita” “Hareru to ii ne”
Sonna atarimae no kurikaeshi ga
Boku ni totte kagayaku ai no hibi deshita
Sugisatta jikan wa kagayaki wo mashite
Boku ni wa amari ni mo mabushikute
Sabishikute mune ga shimetsukerareru
Ano hi, dakishimeta ude wo yurumetara
Mou nido to
Nido to ae naku naru ki ga shita
Soshite boku wa hitori ni natta
Kotoshi mo momiji ga kaze ni matte aki no
Owari wo utsukushiku saitte imasu
Kono chiisa na ki no shita de shizuka na
Koi no monogatari wo owaraseru mae ni
Hitotsu dake...
Boku wa, boku wa anata no kioku no naka de
Jouzu ni waraete masu ka?

translation:
Even if there are things that fade
There aren't things that vanish.
The memory of loving one person alone
That time, always and everyday
The future we found after one look
Is one, an infinite bond.
Under that little maple tree
That trembles in the wind, mustering the courage
I told you that one confession
Making love to your right hand ring finger
A confortable binding is settled.
Exposed to the warm Spring's sun
While being playful with each other
“It's okay if time, if time stops in this moment”
I seriously thought that.
“Good Morning” “Goodnight”
“Let's hold hands” “Let's be together forever”
“Thank you” “I'm sorry”
“See you tomorrow” “It's good that it stopped raining, isn't it?”
Those obvious repetitions
For me, they were sparkling everydays of love
While they glistened more as time passed by
To me, they were too dazzling, too lonely
So much that my chest tightens
That day, after I loosened the arms that were holding you
Never again,
I had the feeling I wouldn't meet you again
And then I was alone
This year too, the maple dances in the wind and
Colours wonderfully the end of Automne
Before putting an end to the story of our peaceful love
Under this little tree
Just one thing...
In your memories am I, am I able to
Laugh perfectly?

kanji:
薄れることはあっても
消えることはない　
一人の人を愛した記憶
あの頃いつも　いつの日も
眼差しの先にあった
未来は一つ永遠の絆
風に揺れる紅葉の
あの小さな木の下で勇気を
振り絞って伝えた一つの告白
右手の薬指にはめたお
揃いの心地よい束縛
春の温かい陽だまりの
中でじゃれ合いながら
このまま時が時が止まってしまえば
いいのに　本気でそう思った
「おはよう」「おやすみ」
「手を繋ごう」「ずっと一緒にいよう」
「ありがとう」「ごめんね」
「また明日」「晴れるといいね」
そんな当たり前の繰り返しが　
僕にとって輝く愛の日々でした
過ぎ去った時間は輝きを増して
僕にはあまりにも眩しくて　
淋しくて　胸がしめつけられる
あの日、抱きしめた腕を緩めたら
もう二度と
二度と逢えなくなる気がした
そして僕は一人になった
今年も紅葉が風に舞って秋の
終わりを美しく彩っています
この小さな木の下で静かな
恋の物語を終わらせる前に
一つだけ…
僕は、僕はあなたの記憶の中で
上手に笑えてますか?

credits:
lyrics taken from JPopAsia
english translation by nyctea62442

Has Juan ran out of originality?

2009-07-05T11:04:00.002+08:00

It might sound a little harsh and I hate to admit that all I see on Philippine TV are reruns or remakes. And I stopped watching local TV dramas since then.

This all started a while back I have ignored most of what has been happening on Philippine TV, it was because most of the TV drama I see ends with the hero/the lead character alive. Though there is nothing wrong with that but sometimes there are stories that would be more meaningful or a little better if the lead character dies. Not only that most lead characters are either very innocent or really naïve. Another thing most lead characters are played by the most popular stars and the next big drama would go to them as well, that’s a little too much don’t you think? And because of all that I got tired of watching local TV dramas and resort to just watching anime and some Japanese dramas.

It’s been really a long time since I watched a local drama and last night I tried to watch one, here’s the scenario... it’s Monday and at 9pm on channel 9 Heroes is on but instead it was a basketball game. I don’t watch basketball games and I think the only basketball game I actually watched was Slamdunk. Anyway it was still a bit early so I channel surfed a bit. But since my remote control needs replacement I stick to channel 7 and watched Totoy Bato for a while. My mom religiously watch TV dramas especially from GMA 7.

Actually I wasn’t paying much attention to the TV. I hear these characters conversation about a Totoy’s daughter needing a heart transplant and a hostage taking and a lot more and I said to myself this sounds familiar. I kept watching and I somehow knew that I’ve heard an exact story somewhere. After a little more contemplating, it hit me, it was eerily similar to Denzel Washigton’s role in the movie John Q. Where his son needed a heart transplant and his HMO won’t cover his son’s hospital expenses.

And I was like what the heck is wrong with Philippine TV shows today? Can’t they have another ORIGINAL fantasy show or something? First they make remakes of old Pinoy films, then Pinoy comics, and then TV dramas from other countries. I know the old films could be a good idea since some of those Pinoy films are quite famous and as they say the start of Pinoy cinema but do they really need to change it that much? Like what I started above? Maybe they were thinking ‘oh these films are so good once the audience see these they would like it and maybe even check out the original film!’. Ok if they are thinking that then here’s what I say ‘not everybody has the income to actually buy original CDs to actually watch these old films and how sure are you that the audience would like it AND what does the original writers think about what you guys did to their original story?’

*sigh* it would be better if you make an original story that you could actually be proud of that and even foreigner maybe like it so much that they would like it to be aired in their country.

But I do understand this...

That I don’t think like everyone else, maybe there are some out there that might agree with me in some way but again, I’m not the General Audience.

I remember one time my mom loves this TV drama staring Eddie Garcia. The story was pretty good and there’s a lot of viewers. The story ended with Eddie Garcia dying of an incurable disease. I know I talked to someone about this and I forgot who it was and the title of the drama... sorry ^^. Most of its watchers didn’t like the ending and it was the start of all leading characters not dying in the end. I guess since then these writers actually survey their audience on how they would like the story to end.

And I also understand that our country isn’t as abundant and TV dramas and movies has become an escape to our rather depressing reality. I think I remember someone saying that she rather see these TV characters be successful, so she will feel successful as well. Yeah can you believe it? These TV dramas has become someone hope for a better life in the future.

And so I end these blog with me crawling back in front of my computer watching anime and Japanese dramas and sometimes playing the coolest RPGs around. And thinking maybe Juan just took a break...

originally posted at Multiply (April 21, 2009)

making a vampire

2009-03-20T15:36:00.004+08:00

Actually there’s a story behind this, by the way, when I posted this on DA I didn’t include this story... I was shy... Anyway forget what I said about him being Lestat, even to me it sounds awkward...

She begged him to make her a vampire, to see what he sees, to feel what he feels, to experience everything that a vampire blood can offer. He didn’t want to but he loves her and he’ll do everything for her. He promised not to make another of his kind but he loves her. With his vampiric blood he cast a mind gift on her telling her body to sleep so she won’t feel the pain of this vampiric ritual. She fell in his arms, blood tears fall from his eyes and with one swing of his hands he rip her blood red dress exposing her sweet smelling neck. He did it quick and gave her a bite. He drank her blood and stopped before her body dies. He cut his wrist and let his blood fall in her beautifully painted lips. A moment passed, she’s starting to feel the pain, her body is dying, and she screamed in pain, he held her in his arms. The pain gradually faded, she opened her eyes and she’s finally like her lover, a vampire.

Yeah I know the story is heavily inspired by Anne Rice works, sorry I’m really in love with her works...

original pic X DA link X theOtaku link

on the other side of my drawing thingy... To tell you honestly, I do draw hentai. I seriously think I can learn from it, not the sexual part, but for how the body placed. I mean, one of my weakness in drawing is poses and hentai offers so much of it... but I get too much requests for me to do a whole lot of it. So weird...

au revior my love~!

maybe that's why I wanted ICE CREAM...

2009-02-20T15:49:00.002+08:00

Out of 86,649 that took the Nursing Board exams, only 39,455 have passed... and one of them is my brother!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

what’s up with the title? ...cause about 2 hours earlier before we heard the news on TV. I wanted ice cream as soon as I heard the Ice cream cart coming. I paid about 150php for that (I have to buy my mom and brother too you know) but when I saw that my brother passed I said to myself, ahhh... that’s why I wanted ice cream and I felt that I don’t need to trick them to buy me ice cream next time.

That’s the whole celebration right there~! Yeah seriously we didn't order anything or something...

click here for the site I took this from... I mean the screenshot... ^_^

i am an OTAKU!

2009-02-12T15:33:00.002+08:00

I don’t think I’ll never anything else but an Otaku. Believe me I tired to graduate from it but I became something I never wanted to be. It was about 3 years ago when I decided to give music a chance. Since at that time Pinoy Rock music is hot I gave it a try and to also get in with the trend, most of my classmates are into it. I know it sounds stupid to get into something because everyone else is into it but at that class I’m the one and only Otaku. There is a female gamer like myself but her personality drives everyone mad, although I can adapt to her I still don’t feel totally comfortable with her. I mean I don’t trust her as much.

For a year I turned my attention to music and I feel like a fish out of water. Though I somehow get close to another crowd in class I feel I don’t belong to them. I did enjoy it, going to gigs meeting the bands. But there’s a side of me those time that music shaped within me. I had personas that are sad and suicidal. It became a way for me to express that side of me but it wasn’t good.

A few months before my first day in College I feel I’m not supposed to be there. Though I wanted to move I can’t and I became suicidal but I could suppress it. When I turned my attention to music I became worst that ever. I even came close to resting a sharp blade in my wrist and deciding if I should continue. But of course nothing happened I was able to fool myself out of it. After devastating news of my years in college, I felt free. I realized that all these years I have been kidding myself.

Eventually I came back to being an Otaku and I never felt better. Ok I know I might not get laid because of it but to hell with that. I don’t want to force myself into something I don’t like. I don’t want to fool my way through life again. Since going back to my old anime habits, I have started to hone my drawing skills and learn to speak Japanese on my way that I wanted to do for a really long time.

I’ll say that Anime kept me grounded. It kept me away from crazy thoughts of suicide and hate. I might sound violent, sad and crazy sometimes but it’s because I’m playing a role for my new characters and trust me it only happens in my house and nowhere else and those crazy personalities are immediately transferred to my stories.

Trust me when I say, I came into that dark place and came out alive. I became a better person but I swear I’ll improve myself in other ways.

It makes me sad though to hear that my online buddies are not Otakus anymore. But change is always good, I just hope that they changed for the better. There are norms I know but I don’t believe we have to get through all that just to prove we are human beings. We are all different and that is that only thing that makes us the same.

So there you go, I am happy and striving to be successful. I am proud to be who I am, an Otaku. It might sound childish but this is who I am. By the way this doesn’t mean I don’t like anything else it just happens that Anime and Videogames are on my list next to my family and friends.

和愛礼... Peace Love Respect

ジャネ! See yah!

i want to try PARKOUR and FREE RUNNING!

2009-02-06T15:33:00.006+08:00

I saw on Attack of the Show a special where the hosts along with 5 other people went to Japan and participated in a Japanese show called Sasuke. And the participants are mostly into Parkour and Free Running.

On the same day I watched the Attack of the Show special, I saw a report on Unang Hirit about a group of people where they practice Parkour and Free Running. Just seeing that makes me want to participate too. But I live so far from those people, which is so frustrating! But I’m going to find a way! I’m that determined!

What am I talking about?

Parkour is also called the art of escape, a physical activity with the aim of moving from one place to another as efficiently and quickly as possible. It is meant to overcome any obstacle in the surrounding, like braches and walls, which could be practiced in both rural and urban areas. It is an activity resembling martial arts except that in parkour is training for escaping.

Free Running is another physical activity where the participants use rural and urban areas to perform movement much like Parkour. It incorporates some movements of Parkour. The way I see it, it’s basically running while expressing yourself by performing acrobatics tricks along the way. Free Runners describes this activity as a discipline of self development and following your on way.

I miss you

2009-02-05T15:29:00.002+08:00

Last Monday, I had this dream. We were about to sleep and I’m already laying in my bed. It was a queen size bed and my brother is already asleep in there and my mom is still down stairs brushing her teeth. My dogs were noisy and I wanted them to stop so they won’t bother the neighbors. Across the room my relatives were there also getting ready for bed. I looked out the window and my dog was there jumping as if he could jump from the ground to the second floor window. I told them to shut up and they did. I was about to get back to bed when my aunt called me to look out at the window again. My dog is still jumping and it became higher and higher until she finally got inside. He was running around bothering my relatives, I immediately called her to come to me. He kept cuddling me, I gave up and I sat at the wooden floor. Just then I realized that it wasn’t he but SHE. It wasn’t my dog Notaru but it was Cesli. I laydown beside her and turned the TV on just until my mom goes to bed. I glanced at Cesli and she’s already asleep in my arms. Then I heard my grandmother saying “turn off the TV and go to sleep”. As soon as I did that I woke up. And I just wasn’t able to sleep again.

You see my dog Cesli died about 8 years ago (I actually don’t count the day) and last Monday, if my memory serves my right, was the day that she died. And adding to that my grandmother is also passed away about two years ago. That night I just felt my grandfather is also there who passed only months when my grandmother passed. Also that house in my dream is my grandparent’s old house which is completely renovated two years before my grandmother passed.

This isn’t the first time that happened. When Cesli died it was two years after my dad passed. I remember the dream I had only months when she died. She was sitting in my lap and we were playing. Suddenly she jumped down and run in the distance. There was a man were she stopped I didn’t see his face but the way he stood I know that he’s dad.

I miss that dog! Her name, like my other dogs, also came from Anime. Her name came from the Anime “Eto Rangers” (I’m not sure what is it’s real title). Her name supposed to be “Yalong the dog”. But Yalong is a boy so I took her name from the cutest girl character in the Anime, Cesli the sheep.

I can’t forget her last moments with me it was so sad. I’m just so sorry that I didn’t get to play with her as much during that moment. I just into college then and my schedule is just so tiring and hectic. She loves playing though she doesn’t know any dog tricks. At least now, I know that when I die she’ll be waiting for me in the other side.

I miss you so much I’ll see when I get there! AISHITERU CESLI-KUN!

i'm a ninja

2009-01-31T17:01:00.003+08:00

Let’s see my birthday was last week and I spent it like my most normal days. I always see to it that I do something not normal, but not to the point that I would jump off from a building. I mean at least have something I have been lusting for to have or to do.

Two years ago I saw this big metal kunai ㊀ at Comic Alley and obviously I finally bought it. It seems to be a waste of time and money that I bought that but you have no idea how much I wanted to have one and also have a sword. Well now that I have a Kunai all I need now is a sword, I just have no idea where to buy one. Here’s a couple of picture where I’m trying to model my new shiny toy... ㊁㊂

I also bought this glass㊃, my brother and I call this the Venetian Blinds... (after those window curtain usually seen in offices)

And everytime I go to Southmall I go to Story Land for one purpose. And that is to shoot targets. I regretted that I have thrown away my previous target board cause now I don’t know if I have progressed...

my vampiric thoughts (part two)

2009-01-26T14:45:00.002+08:00

I still couldn’t get the fact that vampires are hot these days because of a vampire named “Edward Cullen”. Again I have nothing against the story and I must say I like it. But the fact that there are vampires in this story, that’s the part I don’t like. I wouldn’t mind if they use other mystical creatures I really wouldn’t care I’ll probably love it even more.

You see I’ve been a vampire fanatic for at least five years now. Although I don’t have a vampire stereotype I still love vampires and would like to be one. I really couldn’t see myself drinking blood or feeding off people’s energy. Yeah there are vampires out there... maybe they should be call something else but that’s just my opinion. I mean when the general public hears the word vampire they’re thinking of those Hollywood stories of a creature that could turn into a bat and feeding off people’s blood.

One thing I like about vampire stories is their stories. Vampires lives for century and have seen a lot of things as nights pass them by, their stories of struggles and triumphs, stories of people and creatures they’ve met. And reading and hearing stories like that make me want to be one. I would love to go places and see different things too. Forget the powers I really don’t care. Living forever isn’t a bad idea. And the sad part I’m over that, I’m always alone anyway...

This is what is lacking in the Twilight series, it’s a different kind of story most definitely for love sick teenagers. And these kind of stories just put more pressure on guys. You know why? Girls would expect their boyfriends to do something like that. Actually that’s the same with some ANIME stories... seriously girls let your guys do their thing! If it doesn’t work out love them the same, you can’t have everything you know...

And one last thing... VAMPIRES DON’T SPARKLE IN THE SUN! They burn turn to dust and die! I know Lestat have walk under the sun and that is only after drinking from the Queen of all the Damned. And yes I know their skin looks like porcelain when they don’t drink blood or something. But that’s not an excuse to make them SPARKLE! Argg... whatever...

I still like the story though I just ignore the fact that he’s a vampire...

my vampiric thoughts

2009-01-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

I finally gave in... I was planning to just wait for this to air on cable so I wouldn’t cost me anything but I can’t help it. I love vampire stories, I’m a sucker for vampire stories!

The story eh... I think you already know that... why bother telling you... I just think that her situation is too perfect. I mean she is easily welcomed in her new school and in Cullen’s family (except for one of the vampires, which I think is great). And I read somewhere that Jacob is part of the werewolf clan and he is her childhood friend. It’s too perfect I guess this is really a romance story and that is the only conflict. I was watching this movie and in the first 30 minutes of the movie I’m already wishing the story would end, in short I was bored.

By the way, does this story sound familiar to you? no? maybe you haven’t watched it huh? The story is similar to the movie adaptation of the book Queen of the Damned, where Lestat became attracted to Jesse and she fell for him. But I must say this never happened in the book *spoilers* she did fell for a vampire but not Lestat... if you have watched the movie I suggest that you read to the book, its really good!

Do you know whose fault this is? The whole I want to be with a vampire thing? Who else but the author of the Vampire Chronicles, Anne Rice. I must say I’m an avid reader of her books. Too bad though that she doesn’t write vampire stories anymore... I have 4 more books to read. Why can’t I find a second hand copy? *sigh* She made her vampire so god-damned sexy, smart, charming and *drool*! And I must admit that I’m in love with Lestat too.

But who’s better? Who would you pick? Who would you want to be with?
Lestat de Lioncourt? or Edward Cullen?
But I guess you know already how I picked...

Hmmm... I guess this was nothing to do with Twilight but it started with Twilight. Have you watched that episode of Jessica Soho last Saturday about Vampires? Yeah Twilight was mentioned but I want to know about the vampire culture here in the Philippines. I don’t know if it existed here, I was curious about that ever since I watched that Tyra Show episode about the Vampire Culture. I guess my curiosity is answered there are vampires here. But I’ll never make contact I just want to know.

Anyway there is another question I wanted to know the answer but it involves a certain celebrity, I guess I’ll find out if somebody else notices his love for the idea. Anyway if he ever was I think he’s a psychic vampire, it’s perfect for him especially that he’s a world wide known rock star. And I do love him too! Clue? He formed two famous bands and he also have a solo career.

While that show was airing my mom and I had a debate again with my morbidity and my love for vampires. Well the conversation was mixed from me to what she is seeing in the TV. I also pointed out that Twilight is more of a romance story than a vampire story and the only reason I wanted to watch it is because of vampires. She was saying why I like those stuff and about the blood drinking. I know I like vampires but I’ll never go as far blood drinking.
Why do I like vampires anyway? I don’t know maybe you should read the vampire chronicles too that’s where this obsession started anyway... or at least watch the movies...

this is a repost...

alien abduction

2009-01-24T16:00:00.004+08:00

How you heard about alien abduction? You know the stuff that people who claims that they have been abducted by aliens and they where experimented on and stuff? Well my story isn’t about that... I was watching National Geographic’s “Is it real?” where there are people claiming that they have been abducted by aliens.

The scientist, doctor err... whatever... explained that what they were experiencing were some kind of disorder. Actually I forgot the whole explanation but they said that something in our brains turns off when we sleep, that thing that controls our motor system or something. At that time you could also see things or hallucinate and see ghosts or aliens because of the lack of air. You know when we sleep sometimes we dream that we are walking or running, so our brains turn that off so that we won’t walk or run when we are actually sleeping. I know there are some cases that people do walk I think it’s called Somnambulism or something...

Why am I telling you this? Well I think the same explanation applies to “bangungot” or as my brother calls it Sleep Apnea, a sleeping disorder where in the middle of your sleep you could stop breathing. It said that if you are experiencing this you’ll be moving a lot while sleeping. A classmate of mine claimed that she have had this experience, she said that she was lucky that someone was in the room with her and waked her up.

I actually have insomnia because of this reoccurring instances that I’m awake but I couldn’t move and I’m having a hard time breathing, and every time I try to move I’m having a more difficult time breathing.

Well if what I have been experiencing is the same with that sleep apnea or bangungot then I think this could be beaten... what I usually do is just stay calm and breathe. The first time I experienced this I tried to knock on the wall since it’s just wood and on the other side is my brother’s room. But since I can’t move I couldn’t do that. My bedroom door is always at that time so tried to scream but no voice comes out from me or maybe the my voice is too faint to be heard and I’m also having a hard time breathing every time I do that. So I just gave up I accepted my fate that I could die any moment and when I pass out I won’t wake up again. So stopped moving and continued to breathe as much as I can keeping my eyes open waiting for the moment that I pass out. But after a while I felt that I could move again, after that I wasn’t able to sleep properly again; hence my insomnia.

This experience has happened to me many times and all I did is stay calm and breathe.

I hope you get what I mean... I really want to share this with you guys. Cause I was researching about this and it always falls to SUDS (sudden unexplainable death syndrome) or SUNDS (sudden unexplainable nocturnal death syndrome).There are treatments but I don’t understand if it actually works. It said that SUDS maybe also be connected to a heart failure.